"miss sick world (Remix)" lyrics

I don't wanna be miss world (miss world)
Not in this sick world
Where I have to fake tears when I'm laughing
Smile when I'm unhappy
Everybody's reaching for the crown
But I don't want it

I try to tell myself that I'm an optimist
Crying on my own it gave me thicker skin
But really in the end it feels the opposite
Thinking all my friends they really wore me in
Like a pair of Dr. Martens

I close my eyes
And small specs of light
Are there dancing through my eyelids
Spiralling in the middle of the night
I close my eyes and I'm who I wanna be
Wake up and they won't let me, let me

I don't wanna be miss world (miss world)
Not in this sick world
Where I have to fake tears when I'm laughing
Smile when I'm unhappy
Everybody clapping when I'm down
Don't need to be miss world
No, not in this sick world
Where I gotta pretend that I got this
When I've fucking lost it
Everybody's reaching for the crown
But I don't want it

I was told that I was brave and I was strong
Smiling for the camera but is it wrong
To just want to be pretty and have someone love me for me
And not for who I could be?

I close my eyes
And small specs of light
Are there dancing through my eyelids
Spiralling in the middle of the night
I close my eyes and I'm who I wanna be
Wake up and they won't let me, let me

I don't wanna be miss world (miss world)
Not in this sick world
Where I have to fake tears when I'm laughing
Smile when I'm unhappy
Everybody's clapping when I'm down
Don't need to be miss world
Not in this sick world
Where I gotta pretend that I got this
When I've fucking lost it
Everybody's reaching for the crown
But I don't want it