"bloodstream (mother's version)" lyrics
Maybe I was too young to really understand
I watched you want somebody that's not gonna hold you for something you said
But maybe if my mouth stayed shut and if you weren't so mean
The house for once would feel kinda quiet
You wouldn't blame me for wanting to leave
And I'm sitting here convincing you to pick up the phone and call
I am my mother's daughter but I'm nothing like her at all
And I hear her in the way I speak, or when I look in the mirror
The anger's growing in me, it shows, could it be any clearer?
That I'm like her 'cause she made me the way I am
When we're fighting, and all I need is somebody
And I'm crying on my mama's floor, why don't you want this anymore?
And I'm craving you to change for me
You're saying, "I hear you, and I love you, but my heart, it hurts for you
And I just cannot give you what you need"
Am I too much? Am I enough? 'Cause you said you wouldn't give up
Now I'm numb on my knees, praying to God you'd talk to me
Wondering what it takes for you to stay off my mind and far out of my bloodstream
You never laid your hands on me, and that's something that I'm grateful for
But I should've known that you'd gone mad when I saw the way you punched your doors
And I don't regret loving you 'cause I know that you needed it
But the way you treated me made me feel like a little kid
And something deep inside of me tells me that you're not better now
And I'm sorry that I couldn't help, but I'm so glad I made it out
And I'm crying on my mama's floor, why don't you want this anymore?
And I'm craving you to change for me
You're saying, "I hear you, and I love you, but my heart, it hurts for you
And I just cannot give you what you need"
Am I too much? Am I enough? 'Cause you said you wouldn't give up
Now I'm numb on my knees, praying to God you'd talk to me
Wondering what it takes for you to stay off my mind and far out of my bloodstream
I watched you want somebody that's not gonna hold you for something you said
But maybe if my mouth stayed shut and if you weren't so mean
The house for once would feel kinda quiet
You wouldn't blame me for wanting to leave
And I'm sitting here convincing you to pick up the phone and call
I am my mother's daughter but I'm nothing like her at all
And I hear her in the way I speak, or when I look in the mirror
The anger's growing in me, it shows, could it be any clearer?
That I'm like her 'cause she made me the way I am
When we're fighting, and all I need is somebody
And I'm crying on my mama's floor, why don't you want this anymore?
And I'm craving you to change for me
You're saying, "I hear you, and I love you, but my heart, it hurts for you
And I just cannot give you what you need"
Am I too much? Am I enough? 'Cause you said you wouldn't give up
Now I'm numb on my knees, praying to God you'd talk to me
Wondering what it takes for you to stay off my mind and far out of my bloodstream
You never laid your hands on me, and that's something that I'm grateful for
But I should've known that you'd gone mad when I saw the way you punched your doors
And I don't regret loving you 'cause I know that you needed it
But the way you treated me made me feel like a little kid
And something deep inside of me tells me that you're not better now
And I'm sorry that I couldn't help, but I'm so glad I made it out
And I'm crying on my mama's floor, why don't you want this anymore?
And I'm craving you to change for me
You're saying, "I hear you, and I love you, but my heart, it hurts for you
And I just cannot give you what you need"
Am I too much? Am I enough? 'Cause you said you wouldn't give up
Now I'm numb on my knees, praying to God you'd talk to me
Wondering what it takes for you to stay off my mind and far out of my bloodstream
