"Will I Ever Love?" lyrics

Every choice I made was wrong, and
Souls who loved me were left broken
Guess I'll pay for this 'til the end of days
I won and lost and calculated
Why who I liked I never dated
And broke my head deriving formula

But will I ever love?
Feel it inside my heart?
All that I do is
Fake it all again, fake it all again, boring
Reckoning again, reckoning again, for it
How do I make this vicious cycle end?

Convinced myself to like the beds I shared
While crying, going numb and lying bare
I did it all for them and more
With all my body getting sore
How could I be so brutal to myself?

Will I ever love?
Feel it inside my heart?
All that I do is
Fake it all again, fake it all again, boring
Reckoning again, reckoning again, for it
How do I make this vicious cycle end?

"Will we have kids and marry, hun?"
"I'd like to, but you're not the one"
"I wanna keep you"
"You cage and treat me wrong"
"You are a dream girl"
"You made up all along"
Maybe we're meant to end alone
All alone

Born to be alone, born to be alone
Earned it
Born to be alone, born to be alone
Worth it
How do I make this vicious cycle end?