"diorama" lyrics

Catatonic, stone solid in a cryonic charm
I can't let 'em know I'm trippin' like a silent alarm
Either trust 'em bout as far as I could throw 'em with a bionic arm
Or end up settin' way too high of a bar
Sworn to secrecy, elucidated sister of the frequency
Golden teacher tea, weeping underneath the lights at Menards
It's where my people be, choked up like it's equal parts
Vitamin E and THC inside of the cart
Pig motherfuckers die on the farm
Aimless, couldn't hit the broad side of a barn
Myopic, loss hittin' like an ionic charge
Chacruna pluckin' in the sun at first light of the dawn
Daybreak ayahuasca, dialtone trauma
Told my shrink that I think I'm inside of a diorama
Interloping, no sign of the exhibit closing
Still repeatin' my old mantra, sayin'

Always alright
Always alright
Always alright
Always

Always alright
Always alright
Always alright
Always, always

I'm just compensating
Comping every vocal, it's a compilation
Scroll and press I read it and accept it like it's not surveillance
So really, wh-what the fuck and how the fuck
You expect me to respect the way you egg me on?
It begs some harder questions
Like check, check, mic check, check, is this thing still on?
Are my distasteful bars still a disgrace to God?
My mantra: shit's alright as long as I don't face it
I twist these knobs and faders
I'm still a child inside, been hiding from my learned fears
Product of the silence from my father in my early years
I'm buggin' now that thirty's near
Gone somewhere to numb the pain it hurts to heal
I can't feel the love, I can't be sure it's real
My hero, here I am again
Zero-sum game, I subtracted from what?
Meander through the madness with a palette and brush
Painting all the colors that I never saw enough

Always alright
Always alright
Always alright
Always

Always alright
Always alright
Always alright
Always, always