"My Pastor" lyrics

I don't think that any pastors practice what they preach
'Cause they recite the same old words
A thousand times a week
And my pastor loves to tell me that I am deeply flawed
And I'll never be worthy of being loved by his God
I studied in my Bible didn't understand a word
But I thought if I made an effort then
Somehow I'd be heard
God just never answered and I'll never hear his voice
But there's so many things I'll remember
All against my choice

Oh why must I wear gods disguise
One day I'll learn who I really am
And why must I go along with your lies
And walk blindly not guided by your hand
'Cause my pastor is only a man
And God doesn't really have a plan
My pastor is only a man
And God doesn't really have a plan

I don't think that any church would ever welcome me
The kids all ignored what I said
So I just didn't speak
And I was always known as the awkward rebel teen
I was desperate and lonely so I begged to be seen
But I don't think that any church would have really cared
If I just disappeared or if I was never there
So I fantasized about the thought of never being born

They say that heaven is lovely so
What am I here for
Oh why must I wear gods disguise
One day I'll learn who I really am
And why must I go along with your lies
And walk blindly not guided by your hand
'Cause my pastor is only a man
And God doesn't really have a plan
My pastor is only a man
And God doesn't really have a plan
Built my house up on the sand
Nothing matters it's all out of my hands
And no one really understands
That my pastor is only a man