"Suicidal In Paradise B" lyrics

I was suicidal in paradise
Now I thrive, now I thrive here on earth
And I, I will survive
No matter what this world, world can throw at me
Come alive

This is my last goodbye, my spiritual cry
Every day I will wake up and I'll tell myself
[?] make something of your life
Or just give up
This is a call to arms against myself
There is a reason why people kill themselves
In the head instead of the heart
To kill off the monster

I was suicidal in paradise
Now I thrive, now I thrive here on earth
And I, I will survive
No matter what this world, world can throw at me
Come alive

Oh my God, oh my God, oh my God, oh my God
I'm free from the [?] kingdom
Oh my God, oh my God, oh my God, oh my God
I'm free, I'm free
This is my old life, crash, burn and die
This is a new thought, a new day, a new life
I will not suffer at the hands of myself
Anymore

I was suicidal in paradise
Now I thrive, now I thrive here on earth
And I, I will survive
No matter what this world, world can throw at me
Come alive