"A Tap I Can't Turn Off" lyrics

There is an overwhelming sense of doubt
That's spent a lifetime occupying my mind
The things that I've done to block it out
Have corroded the rest of what's left over time

A fading distant sound is calling to me
But I can't block it out now
I've lost the page and I've lost the count
And now I am struggling to be

How do you believe in me now?
After all the times that I have let you down
How do you believe in me now?
It's not fair and it's scary to think of my life
Without you around

My avoidance has been habit forming
I've done my best to tell a different story
It's built and bred and bled in my thoughts
Now it's like a tap I can't turn off

I follow footsteps that are winding path
Of the things I know I lack
I found the thread and I traced it back
But I struggle to be the person
You still seem to see

How do you believe in me now?
After all the times that I have let you down
How do you believe in me now?
It's not fair and it's scary to think of my life
Without you around

If there wasn't evidence
I wouldn't believe where I have been
But I still lack confidence
And sometimes I feel like shit