"Heavy Shit" lyrics

I got this window in my house
Knows me better than I know myself
Could probably charge me a 50 an hour
For all the heavy shit I pour out

I get these voices in my brain
Feels like I'm part of a new strain
I get disturbed and it's stupid and useless
You get the heavy shit I pour out

So here I am, tryna figure where it all went wrong
Feel like a ghost in my own damn home
Starting to wonder how I got so numb
To this heavy shit I pour out
Bottom and bottles in the mirror when I'm on my own
Feel like I'm lost in my own damn bones
Can someone tell me how I got so numb
To this heavy shit I pour out?

Well, this is all part of life, you see
But the world keeps circling 'round me
Can't seem to stop being so hard on myself
'Cause all this shit I pour out

Still haven't found what I'm looking for, nah
All of these people keep closing doors, it's all me
Can't keep holding all this shit to yourself
Go find a way to let it pour out

So here I am, tryna figure where it all went wrong
Feel like a ghost in my own damn home
Starting to wonder how I got so numb
To this heavy shit I pour out
Bottom and bottles in the mirror when I'm on my own
Feel like I'm lost in my own damn bones
Can someone tell me how I got so numb
To this heavy shit I pour out?

So here I am, so here I am
Like a ghost in my own home again
Mmm, with this heavy shit I pour out
So come on, let it pour, baby, let it pour
(All the heavy shit I pour out)
(Let it pour, all the heavy shit I pour out)

So here I am, tryna figure where it all went wrong
Feel like a ghost in my own damn home
Starting to wonder how I got so numb
To this heavy shit I pour out?
Bottom and bottles in the mirror when I'm on my own
Feel like I'm lost in my own damn bones
Can someone tell me how I got so numb
To this heavy shit I pour out?
(Shit I pour out)

So here I am, so here I am, so here I am
Someone tell me how I got so numb
To this heavy shit I pour out
So here I am, so here I am, so here I am
Someone tell me how I got so numb
To this heavy shit I pour out