"Docket" lyrics

I said, "Don't shake my hand, it's wet," he said, "I'll kiss it instead"
He said, "I saw the whole show, I'm not scared of the sweat"
But I'm scared of the touching
I have someone at home
And I want his body more
When he leaves me alone

Isn't it wrong?
When I'm gone, I look around at the options
I put men on the docket
Give me a curse, I caught a bug
He should be with someone who's more in love
Not someone eating for free
My worst nightmare is me

I always end up back here, stuck somehow
Obvious I'm powerless when you're around
And I don't know why
I see her in the sun
Staring straight to the sky
Burning me just for fun

Isn't it wrong?
When I'm gone, I look around at the options
I put men on the docket
Give me a curse, I caught a bug
He should be with someone who's more in love
Not someone eating for free
My worst nightmare is me

Feeling like it's twisted, feeling like he's been fishing
I should probably cut him loose instead of kissing
I don't wanna want what I haven't got
But it kills the lull when I'm not full
When I'm not full, I fill the space with Barbasol
And I'm here, and I'm fading
You're wrong for waiting
And it's cruel to let you love me
I don't want what I need

Isn't it wrong?
When I'm gone, I look around at the options
I put men on the docket
Give me a curse, I caught a bug
He should be with someone who's more in love
Not someone eating for free
My worst nightmare is me