"White Noise" lyrics

The slow panic
The quiet manipulation
Circling my head
The mosaic
Painted
The moment this prescription filters in

And I feel the slow burn
It's animal nature
And I don't recognize myself
Yet I breathe and I crawl to survive
And I let these pills slowly numb up the inside

Pain creeps into this place
I've got this feeling that it won't go away
And I bite my tongue till it bleeds
I know you know it
Slow decay from everything real
And god how I love the way that it feels
And I'd fall apart right here
Taste the bitter as the sweetness disappears

I can't let go
Of this feeling
I can't cope
And I'm sinking
So fill my head with medication
So fucked up so nauseated
It's just white noise
Drowning out my own voice
I can't take it
So numb me up till I'm complacent
Self destruct
Annihilation

Gone
Psychosomatic
Ritual habit
I don't hesitate
Dissociate
Let it permeate
As my eyes roll back
And the colors change to
Fucking neon

From pale white light
The slow abyss that I felt creep inside
It dissipates as the iris fades
My eyes
Open for the first time
Serotonin knives
Carving at the wasted space inside
Escape the moments I've chosen to forget if just for tonight

I can't let go
Of this feeling
I can't cope
And I'm sinking
So fill my head with medication
So fucked up so nauseated
It's just white noise
Drowning out my own voice
I can't take it
So numb me up till I'm complacent
Self destruct
Annihilation

I found the pierce in the veil
I'm not you
I'm not anyone to anyone
Just bury all the shattered pieces
Deep enough so no one sees them
I've spent so long
Stuck in slow motion
Drowning in self hate
Deeper than oceans
Sink in to my bones
Bury all the shattered pieces
Deep enough so no one sees them

I can't let go
Of this feeling
I can't cope
And I'm sinking
So fill my head with medication
So fucked up so nauseated
It's just white noise
Drowning out my own voice
I can't take it
So numb me up till I'm complacent
Self destruct
Annihilation
Gone