"20 MISSED CALLS" lyrics

'Cause I've had six beers and twenty missed calls
Oh, the trait that I've been missing is balance
I cry tears of forty proof salt and the vodka doubles back to my palate
I wish the pain was as fleeting as the happiness (Ooh-ahh-ahh)
I wish my shame didn't make me such a masochist (Ooh-ahh-ahh)

It's like it pulls me down
I'm sinkin' into it
Mind running wild like I missed my dose of Ritalin
I know the words on my iPhone are probably right
I pull my covers down
I'm getting sick of this
Stomach turns over 'cause there's nothing in my system but bile
Oh, it's been a while since I've been alright

Oh, I got this feeling that I hurt somebody
The cigarette burn on my shoulder's throbbing
To make it all worse, I don't know who saw me
I hate that my curse is my only hobby

'Cause I've had six beers and twenty missed calls
Oh, the trait that I've been missing is balance
I cry tears of forty proof salt and the vodka doubles back to my palate
I wish the pain was as fleeting as the happiness (Ooh-ahh-ahh)
I wish my shame didn't make me such a masochist (Ooh-ahh-ahh)

This isn't happiness
I traded ignorance for sappiness
And bludgeoned my emotions 'till they acquiesced
And all that I feel (All that I feel)
Is forced into my body (Forced into my body)
I play human calculus
Running numbers on your realness
I carry my ones with my ego
Can't feel shit, I lose my light
Halfway down the bottle (Halfway down the bottle)

So, I'm a stranger to grace, to having stable talks (Ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh)
The words come out with no brace, the conversation walks
And that's the hurt that I hate, I'd rather stack some rocks (Ahh-ahh-ahh)
I feel the safest escape is in a trace of chalk (A trace of chalk)

'Cause I've had six beers and twenty missed calls
Oh, the trait that I've been missing is balance
I cry tears of forty proof salt and the vodka doubles back to my palate
I wish the pain was as fleeting as the happiness (Ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh)
I wish my shame didn't make me such a masochist (Ooh-ahh-ahh)