"Black Smoke" lyrics

How did I forget who I am
Surrounded by ghosts
They watched me falling apart
I wish I could rewind and go back to the start
Biting my tongue for the taste of another pain
Does my place in this world mean anything

One last time I'm gonna try to stay alive
I can still feel this strife deep inside
I've seen my demons come to life
I ignored them for far too long
The time has come to look them in the eyes

I'm going through fire, through the flames
Through fire, through the flames

There is something
This one thing I can't kill
What should I supposed to feel if nothing is real
I don't run away from my demons anymore
Did I forget the way to breath

What if I surrender
Go under and drown again in the ocean of sorrow
I can see the end
What if I lose my mind

Someday, someday I'll put it behind and find my own way
I pray, I pray that the evil in me will never prevail
Someday, someday someone is gonna call my name
I pray, I pray that the mask I wear will never fall again

I suffocate from my own heartbeat
Until I'm burning in this heat
But then I remember the light in your eyes
The pain and all that you sacrifice
I never gonna make the same mistakes again
One last time I'm gonna try to stay alive

No one sees my sacrifice
No one will ever feel my pain
No one shall fall from grace
No one I can see the end

I reckon nobody can save me, not even you
Take off the death wreath and start to
Oh god, please make me – breathe

I need to find the color in my mind again
I reckon nobody can save me

Someday, someday I'll put it behind and find my own way
I pray, I pray that the evil in me will never prevail
Someday I'll pray

There is something
This one thing I can't kill
What should I supposed to feel if nothing is real
I don't run away from my demons anymore
I went through fire, through the flames to burn out this pain in me

I don't run away from my demons
I've just learned their names
Behind the black smoke I think there's a change
There's a change!