"nirvana" lyrics

I've been trying to talk myself off this ledge
I've been trying lay these thoughts all to rest
But it's eating me alive
I know I should be terrified
But I love the pain
It's who I am
'Cause I was born to die

I find it hard to breathe
When my head is under water
Counting all my sins
Will I make it to nirvana?

I'm praying for redemption
Waiting for ascencion
Counting all my sins
Will I make it to nirvana?

I just talked to God
And, God, I didn't like a second of it
He said I was walking down the wrong path
Matter fact, I'm running

Acting up and acting like I'm happy
Haven't laughed in months
And if you ever ask me I would probably hit the panic button

Run, run, run, run
From the sun, sun, sun, sun
All these mistakes I made
Can't be undone, done, done

So I tread and I tread
Trying to keep my head above the edge (the edge)
Try to always be there for my friends (my friends)
Be a better father to my daughter so she doesn't have to grow up like I did

I find it hard to breathe
When my head is under water
Counting all my sins
Will I make it to nirvana?

I'm praying for redemption
Waiting for ascencion
Counting all my sins
Will I make it to nirvana?

I find it hard to breathe
Will I make it to nirvana?

Counting all my sins
Will I make it to nirvana?

Will I make it to nirvana?