"The Ravenous House" lyrics
The sky broke as I drove home
And poured out before my eyes
Every dream I'd ever kept
In a place where no light could shine
Now the architecture of my life
Stands completely illuminated
Every thought I'd had behind closed doors
Who I'd loved, and who I'd hated
My life started off in wonder
Then I awakened into sorrow
Searching for the meaning of that dream
Fell into a pit halfway to heaven
When I was first left alone as a child
A voice crept in with a song
And through the hitching of my tears
I learned to follow along
And night after night, I sang
To the voice at the back of my mind
And when I asked whose voice it was
It told me it could be mine
Naked in the thorns of sorrow
In a lightning storm of anger
Rage-black clouds come streaming in
Coming back to claim what I stole from heaven
And now the voice underneath it all
Comes swelling up like a flame
As it burns down my last excuse
I finally remember your name
The name I'd covered in dirt
And commanded never be uttered
The voice is calling it over and over
What have I done to my brother?
There was a wound on the wall
The first time I came down from my room
I heard my father playing music
And smelled my mother cooking breakfast
The sunlight was streaming through the cracks in the blinds
And I came down, and there was a wound on the wall
No-one else mentioned it
Hanging on the wall
A family portrait
And I laid eyes on myself for the first time (what's that out here?)
Could that be me? (is that me, what is it?)
But now, I knew I was seen (it's somewhere else, nothing's wrong)
I was watched, by whose eyes? (what is this? Who is that?)
And a voice in my head said ('cause that can't be me)
"That's not you (who are you?), you could be so much greater
You could escape (who am I?), you could leave this behind
(Strangers in our world)
Leave these strangers behind, you could build up so much more"
(Covered in dirt)
Whose eyes were on me then?
(Strangers in our world)
Whose eyes were on me as I got on the computer?
(Covered in dirt)
Whose eyes were on me as I guessed the passwords?
(Strangers in our world)
Whose eyes were on me when I started touching the wound on the wall?
(Covered in dirt)
Whose eyes were on me as my family became strangers to me
(Strangers in our world)
And I became a stain on their carpet
(Covered in dirt)
And their love became unacceptable to me
(Strangers in our world)
And my parents became a liquor bottle that they forgot about, and a car to get me to the next party
(Covered in dirt)
And my brother became missing pills from his prescription
(Strangers in our world)
Because, because the wound said
The wound said "This is love and nothing else"
"Without me, you don't exist"
"You are unlovable unless you get what I give you"
"What the people in movies get"
"You step on people's necks with no regret, every good feeling in the world, everybody loves you, nobody loves anybody but you"
Whose eyes were on me when I started to believe it?
It has been your eyes, this unacceptable love, how can I meet them now?
How can I come back?
I give up (Unhealable)
I give up
Let us take you back to where we came in
We were united, an undivided nation
We got divided, it was something inside us
And it was not us
You were so naive, you were just like an animal
Told what to believe by the beast who took control
He said it won't kill you, and wanting is normal
And your life became one of survival
The decisions you've made, if you can call it deciding
Without light in your eyes, you're a walking suicide if you change your mind
If you get bored and you split the scene
There's a bill for everything that you thought was free
It's a new eternity, was there something you wanted at the bottom of the trash?
I give up
I give up
Let us take you back to where you came in
A boy clinging to the cliff of revelation
So scared of what you would find, you started crying
"It was not me"
Stopped at the borderline, they stripped your disguise
So you read a book that won a Pulitzer Prize
It was about death, it didn't help
You saw yourself in it
And you were disturbed at the conclusions that it led to
But you couldn't say what because the author was dead too
And so though you made fun of us
You have now become one of us
I give up
I give up
I give up
I give up
I give up (I give up, I give up, I give up, I give up, I give up, I give up, I give up, I give up, I give up, I give up)
I give up
I give up
And Matt came back to the table
And said "The bill's already paid"
"If you decide that you want love"
"I love you, I love you, I love you"
And poured out before my eyes
Every dream I'd ever kept
In a place where no light could shine
Now the architecture of my life
Stands completely illuminated
Every thought I'd had behind closed doors
Who I'd loved, and who I'd hated
My life started off in wonder
Then I awakened into sorrow
Searching for the meaning of that dream
Fell into a pit halfway to heaven
When I was first left alone as a child
A voice crept in with a song
And through the hitching of my tears
I learned to follow along
And night after night, I sang
To the voice at the back of my mind
And when I asked whose voice it was
It told me it could be mine
Naked in the thorns of sorrow
In a lightning storm of anger
Rage-black clouds come streaming in
Coming back to claim what I stole from heaven
And now the voice underneath it all
Comes swelling up like a flame
As it burns down my last excuse
I finally remember your name
The name I'd covered in dirt
And commanded never be uttered
The voice is calling it over and over
What have I done to my brother?
There was a wound on the wall
The first time I came down from my room
I heard my father playing music
And smelled my mother cooking breakfast
The sunlight was streaming through the cracks in the blinds
And I came down, and there was a wound on the wall
No-one else mentioned it
Hanging on the wall
A family portrait
And I laid eyes on myself for the first time (what's that out here?)
Could that be me? (is that me, what is it?)
But now, I knew I was seen (it's somewhere else, nothing's wrong)
I was watched, by whose eyes? (what is this? Who is that?)
And a voice in my head said ('cause that can't be me)
"That's not you (who are you?), you could be so much greater
You could escape (who am I?), you could leave this behind
(Strangers in our world)
Leave these strangers behind, you could build up so much more"
(Covered in dirt)
Whose eyes were on me then?
(Strangers in our world)
Whose eyes were on me as I got on the computer?
(Covered in dirt)
Whose eyes were on me as I guessed the passwords?
(Strangers in our world)
Whose eyes were on me when I started touching the wound on the wall?
(Covered in dirt)
Whose eyes were on me as my family became strangers to me
(Strangers in our world)
And I became a stain on their carpet
(Covered in dirt)
And their love became unacceptable to me
(Strangers in our world)
And my parents became a liquor bottle that they forgot about, and a car to get me to the next party
(Covered in dirt)
And my brother became missing pills from his prescription
(Strangers in our world)
Because, because the wound said
The wound said "This is love and nothing else"
"Without me, you don't exist"
"You are unlovable unless you get what I give you"
"What the people in movies get"
"You step on people's necks with no regret, every good feeling in the world, everybody loves you, nobody loves anybody but you"
Whose eyes were on me when I started to believe it?
It has been your eyes, this unacceptable love, how can I meet them now?
How can I come back?
I give up (Unhealable)
I give up
Let us take you back to where we came in
We were united, an undivided nation
We got divided, it was something inside us
And it was not us
You were so naive, you were just like an animal
Told what to believe by the beast who took control
He said it won't kill you, and wanting is normal
And your life became one of survival
The decisions you've made, if you can call it deciding
Without light in your eyes, you're a walking suicide if you change your mind
If you get bored and you split the scene
There's a bill for everything that you thought was free
It's a new eternity, was there something you wanted at the bottom of the trash?
I give up
I give up
Let us take you back to where you came in
A boy clinging to the cliff of revelation
So scared of what you would find, you started crying
"It was not me"
Stopped at the borderline, they stripped your disguise
So you read a book that won a Pulitzer Prize
It was about death, it didn't help
You saw yourself in it
And you were disturbed at the conclusions that it led to
But you couldn't say what because the author was dead too
And so though you made fun of us
You have now become one of us
I give up
I give up
I give up
I give up
I give up (I give up, I give up, I give up, I give up, I give up, I give up, I give up, I give up, I give up, I give up)
I give up
I give up
And Matt came back to the table
And said "The bill's already paid"
"If you decide that you want love"
"I love you, I love you, I love you"
