"i'm trying" lyrics

I don't ever know how to manage
How to exist in the madness
Can't get a grip of my habits
We're only floating on planets
I've got an ache in my body
That's what my intellect cost me
That's what my therapist taught me
Being alive is exhausting

Shaking the dirt off
Don't wanna cry when there's still
Somebody worse off
And no one's getting help from
The ones at the top
Then we all die off
And they laugh their ass off

My mom asked me how I'm holding up
I can barely breathe
Stuck in bed, I'm a wreck
My friends are out but
What about me?
I'm just drunk, too fucked up
I don't even know what I need
Like I said, I'm a wreck
But I'm trying

I'm
Trying

I'm waking up to a silence (a silence)
All of our lives passing by us (pass by us)
Everyone suffers in quiet
Everyone acts like it's fine and

We shake the dirt off
Don't wanna cry when there's still
Somebody worse off
And no one's getting help from
The ones at the top
Then we all die off
And they laugh their ass off, oh

My mom asked me how I'm holding up
I can barely breathe
Stuck in bed, I'm a wreck
My friends are out but
What about me?
I'm just drunk, too fucked up
I don't even know what I need
Like I said, I'm a wreck
But I'm trying

I'm
Trying
(I'm trying, I'm trying
I'm trying, I'm trying
I'm trying, I'm trying
I'm trying, I'm trying)