"only one" lyrics

I lie to everybody and say we're fine
Crossing my ex is wild, crossing lines
I don't know how I breathe anymore 'cause it feels like I kind of can't
You're holding my hands so tight, you control the pen

And everybody thinks that it's normal
Nobody knows that I'm hurting
Everybody thinks that I'm crazy
'Cause everybody thinks that you're perfect
If I told your family, they'd hate me
And if you told our friends, they would choose
So tell me, why am I the only one
Only one you're willing to lose?

I wanna call my mom this time of night
But she's always good at knowing when I've cried
I don't know how I trust anymore 'cause it feels like I'm stuck inside
And all of this baggage I know was never mine

And everybody thinks that it's normal
Nobody knows that I'm hurting
Everybody thinks that I'm crazy
'Cause everybody thinks that you're perfect
If I told your family, they'd hate me
And if you told our friends, they would choose
So tell me, why am I the only one
Only one you're willing to lose? Oh

Why am I? Why am I?
Why am I? Why am I? Why am I?
Why am I? Why am I?
Why am I? Why am I? Why am I?

You're willing to lose
You're willing to lose
You're willing to lose
You're willing to lose
Why am I? Why am I? Why am I?