"Awkward" lyrics

When I was ten
We got separated into classrooms, asked to sit
And we just started talking about what's gonna happen to us
Felt like it was the end of the road, it's boys to men
I was mature about it but

It was really awkward, yeah it's really awkward
Living the same life but all still feel like we're impostors
I still have some questions, need to learn these lessons
Serotonin but the chemicals read off depression
Yeah I guess it's awkward, it is really awkward
Play it cool but on the inside I am mixing toxins
Hostile in the calmness, Hyde and Jekyll don't mix
Sorry to my parents when my lips and fists start to clench
It's just all so awkward

Sixth grade
Blood on my lips and tear stains
Bell indented left a brass taste
Next day there's a smile on her face
Messed up
Got good grades, clean record
Nice kid, I was never better
Get home, turn into the devil
Spit vile on those who knew me better

High school into adulthood, man I thought I would fit in
I guess I did but something still always just felt amiss man
Try to find myself but then it hit me like a brick...
I'm still that same kid with the blood up on his lips

It was really awkward, yeah it's really awkward
Living the same life but all still feel like we're impostors
I still have some questions, need to learn these lessons
Serotonin but the chemicals read off depression
Yeah I guess it's awkward, it is really awkward
Play it cool but on the inside I am mixing toxins
Hostile in the calmness, Hyde and Jekyll don't mix
Sorry to my parents when my lips and fists start to clench
It's just all so awkward

This is a memoir to myself
And to everyone who realizes that life
Can just be a little awkward sometimes
And uh that's alright

It was really awkward, yeah it's really awkward
Living the same life but all still feel like we're impostors
I still have some questions, need to learn these lessons
Serotonin but the chemicals read off depression
Yeah I guess it's awkward, it is really awkward
Play it cool but on the inside I am mixing toxins
Hostile in the calmness, Hyde and Jekyll don't mix
Sorry to my parents when my lips and fists start to clench
It's just all so awkward