"Avoidance" lyrics

You sent me a message
Just leave me alone
Now I'm shaking head to toe

I'd rather the silence
I don't wanna know
I know it's delusional
But I don't have the strength to let you go

It's not that I don't love you
In fact it's the opposite
I get anxious when you call
I'm so scared to message you
In case you're with some lucky bitch
So I leave it all

You want closure
I avoid it
And it must be so annoying I know
I just can't imagine that you're gone

I'd rather avoidance than live in the know
I'm not tryna long it out
I hold onto items
And hold onto hope
Cos I can't bear to live without
As long as I don't contact you then I don't pull you down
It's not that I don't love you

In fact it's the opposite
I get so anxious when you call
I'm so scared to message you
In case you're with some lucky bitch
So I leave it all

You want closure
I avoid it
And it must be so annoying I know
I just can't imagine that you're gone

And I'm not tryna make it harder
I've just never dealt with so much love
And I don't know what to do with it all
Cos no one else will ever be enough to let you go
And it must be so annoying, I know
I just can't imagine that you're gone
And now you're with some lucky bitch
So I leave it all

You want closure
I avoid it
And it must be so annoying I know
And it must be so annoying I know
I know, I know, I know, I know
I just can't imagine that you're gone