"Alternate Ending" lyrics

I'm five seconds away from ruining myself
I could shut my mouth or I could tell you how I felt
But you're with her, so I'll let you carry on

I'll listen through all the voicemails you left
While you make her laugh, I'll wake up in my bed
From dreams of what we could have been if we just carried on

So I'll chase horizons that never stay put
Never let down my guard, 'cause I don't know what's good for me
Speak to the masses but never say much
My heart is too twisted to learn how to trust
In the glow of what's behind, I'll find a new life
Wishing I had you

Remember that night we spent on the dock
Where we laughed and we drank and we smiled and talked
Silence riddled with all our words unsaid

The sun disappeared, you put flowers in my hair
I lived in the bubble wrap and you lived on a dare
Every day, I regret what I left unsaid

So I'll chase horizons that never stay put
Never let down my guard, 'cause I don't know what's good for me
Speak to the masses but never say much
My heart is too twisted to learn how to trust
In the glow of what's behind, I'll find a new life
Wishing I had you

I'll sail away with a shadow of you
And I'll tell the clouds of the love we once knew
Where my fear of never amounting got in the way