"Afraid Of Alone" lyrics
(feat. Jake Segura)
When I was a kid
I was desperate for friends
Cause I didn't like
The dark in my mind
That was pulling me in
Not much has changed
Between now and then
Cause I get attached
But no love could match
The noise in my head
I'm the jealous type
On crack cocaine
My insecurities
Will light you up in flames
I'll always try too hard
Bending til I break
Something bout the self destruction feels so safe
I think I love too hard
Cause I'm afraid of alone
I tear good things apart
Whenever I hold them close
Cause I go fight or flight
Seeing the slightest sign
That they might care less than I do
And leave me far behind
I sabotage everything I need to most
Cause I'm afraid of alone
It's hard looking back
Cause remembering hurts
I start losing count
Of friendships I drowned
Assuming the worst
And good people I framed
Through the victim I played
Like I'd sell any soul
To feel in control
And now it's too late
I'm the jealous type
On crack cocaine
Disguising selfishness
As a boundary strained
Always choose myself
Over the trust I blame
For every single spiral that rewired this brain
I think I love too hard
Cause I'm afraid of alone
I tear good things apart
Whenever I hold em close
Cause I go fight or flight
Seeing the slightest sign
That they might care less than I do
And leave me far behind
I sabotage everything I need to most
Cause I'm afraid of alone
Who I really am
When I can't have control
Don't know why I hate
People I forced to go
Coddling the one
That's been chasing the curse
Cause you can't leave me
If I leave you first
Not a kid anymore
But when I try to change...
Something bout the self destruction feels so safe
I think I love too hard
Cause I'm afraid of alone
I tear good things apart
Whenever I hold em close
Cause I go fight or flight
Seeing the slightest sign
That they might care less than I do
And leave me far behind
I sabotage everything I need to most
Cause I'm afraid of alone
(Cause I'm afraid of alone)
I was desperate for friends
Cause I didn't like
The dark in my mind
That was pulling me in
Not much has changed
Between now and then
Cause I get attached
But no love could match
The noise in my head
I'm the jealous type
On crack cocaine
My insecurities
Will light you up in flames
I'll always try too hard
Bending til I break
Something bout the self destruction feels so safe
I think I love too hard
Cause I'm afraid of alone
I tear good things apart
Whenever I hold them close
Cause I go fight or flight
Seeing the slightest sign
That they might care less than I do
And leave me far behind
I sabotage everything I need to most
Cause I'm afraid of alone
It's hard looking back
Cause remembering hurts
I start losing count
Of friendships I drowned
Assuming the worst
And good people I framed
Through the victim I played
Like I'd sell any soul
To feel in control
And now it's too late
I'm the jealous type
On crack cocaine
Disguising selfishness
As a boundary strained
Always choose myself
Over the trust I blame
For every single spiral that rewired this brain
I think I love too hard
Cause I'm afraid of alone
I tear good things apart
Whenever I hold em close
Cause I go fight or flight
Seeing the slightest sign
That they might care less than I do
And leave me far behind
I sabotage everything I need to most
Cause I'm afraid of alone
Who I really am
When I can't have control
Don't know why I hate
People I forced to go
Coddling the one
That's been chasing the curse
Cause you can't leave me
If I leave you first
Not a kid anymore
But when I try to change...
Something bout the self destruction feels so safe
I think I love too hard
Cause I'm afraid of alone
I tear good things apart
Whenever I hold em close
Cause I go fight or flight
Seeing the slightest sign
That they might care less than I do
And leave me far behind
I sabotage everything I need to most
Cause I'm afraid of alone
(Cause I'm afraid of alone)
