"this year (demo)" lyrics

Another year of sorrow
Another of hoping
I can build a home in me
Finally

Another year of sorrow
Another of hoping
I can build a home in me
Finally

I'm tryna be grateful
Tryna focus on the good
Guess you get what you pay for
And I never could afford to pay for much
And I know I act tough
When I'm really just afraid
They say
Happiness lives in the little things

I hope next year brings peace
But peace don't ever come for free
Hope next year brings peace
But peace don't ever come for free

Another year of sorrow
Another of hoping
I can build a home in me
Finally

I'm tryna be grateful
Tryna look back on this year
With rosy eyes
Saturn has returned
And it was my demise
I'm waiting for relief
I'm waiting for better
Yes, next year I want more
Next year I want more
I wanna reap what I have sown
Wanna walk in the garden
That's yet to grow
Hope I'm not asking for too much
But this year, this year, this year