"1:45" lyrics

I didn't lose a friend
I lost what I use to see
I didn't lose my heart
I just learned what hearts believe

You didn't walk away from me
You walked away from something honest
You walked away from who I was
But that's the man I promised

When the walls start closing in
And I'm the one left abandoned
I don't become the pain you gave me
Just the room that you can't stand in

And if I could just get my hand on one
With one hand on the nine
I'd just let you sleep
And call it 1:45

I didn't lose the reason
Just the disbelief
I didn't lose the heart you broke
I learned what stays beneath

I didn't lose the past
I just saw what it became
I didn't lose the future
I just learned it's not the same

When it's out there on the table
And I'm left there empty handed
I don't become the pain you gave me
Just the room that you can't stand in

And if I could just get my hand on one
With one hand on the nine
I'd just let you sleep
And call it 1:45