"Calling His Name" lyrics

Been running from the mirror and the man that I became
Lost in my shadow, still calling His name
Every time that I climb, I slide back down
How this heaven feels heavy when my knees hit the ground
And there's whiskey in the cabinet, and dust on the Word
And I talk about faith, but I ain't living what I've heard
If I could stop running from the truth that I see
Maybe God is not done with a man like me

I've been breaking every bottle just to watch it bleed
Tryna drown all the noise that's been singing to me
But the devil knows a lullaby, singing me to sleep
And then I wake up feeling like the hell that I keep
I used to wear a cross like it made me clean
But there's still a wound where the light can't reach
I'm just trying to find my way through the pain
Still falling, still crawling, and calling His name

I can feel the war inside when the night gets long
Every sin that I hide writes another song
My faith got scars where my habits might live
And I been takin' much more than I ever could give
I know grace ain't gone, but it's hard to feel
When the wounds that I opened refuse to heal
And maybe He's listening — maybe I'm heard
Maybe mercy waits for my last words

I've been breaking every bottle just to watch it bleed
Tryna drown all the noise that's been singing to me
But the devil knows a lullaby, singing me to sleep
And then I wake up feeling like the hell that I keep
I used to wear a cross like it made me clean
But there's still a wound where the light can't reach
I'm just trying to find my way through the pain
Still falling, still crawling, and calling His name

So if you see me down on my knees again
Don't call it weakness — call it tryin' to mend
Maybe I'm broken, but I ain't ashamed
Still falling, still crawling, and calling His name