"i would rather go to sleep then think of you" lyrics

I done lost all emotions, I'm dope sick
Stuck inside of this room, my friend
I done found my soul at the gates of hell and God yelled that I'm ruined
I found out that your love, it don't last
Do you feel my presence de-attach?
I found out that your words are like glass
They hit my bones and they shatter so fast, go back

On what we coulda been and what we coulda had
I'm catchin' Z's and I see your fuckin' silhouette
Try to repent all of my sins, don't listen to my friends
I don't wanna make no amends or promises
I'd rather go to sleep and just dream of the abyss
I'd rather go to sleep and not dream of this bitch
I'd rather go to sleep with some steel in my wrist
I'd rather go to sleep and not dream of this bitch

I got chronic coughin' from all the dope
My mind froze from whippets I hit when I was low
My gums numb from all of the coke
Heartbroke from all the words that you done broke
I can't believe you finally spilled the things that you know
I can't believe you said you love me when you knew that you don't
I fill the room with my fears, I fill the room with my tears
I hope you smell my fuckin' cologne when you feelin' me near
I know we couldn't get to the [?] I hope you know I'm still here

I done lost all emotions, I'm dope sick
Stuck inside of this room, my friend
I done found my soul at the gates of hell and God yelled that I'm ruined
I found out that your love, it don't last
Do you feel my presence de-attach?
I found out that your words are like glass
They hit my bones and they shatter so fast, go back