"always on my own" lyrics

Always on my own, never much to celebrate
I'm happy just to hesitate, happy just to lose
Everybody gone, looking for another day
I'm looking for another way of running back to you
Always on my own, wish I had some money
And I guess they think I'm funny, how they're laughing in my face
I'ma prove 'em wrong, wish upon a shooting star
Then maybe I can make it far, I wanna run away
I can never show, none of my emotions
I'm a man, so I've been holding up my thoughts of suicide
Fuck, another low, everyone is passing by me
So I think of passing on, but I don't want to die

I don't wanna die that young
I don't wanna buy that gun
I don't want my girl to cry
I guess I keep telling these lies

Fuck all of this sad shit
How can I complain about anything, just imagine
Born into something so horrible, you couldn't fathom
Is it random, random, r-r-random, random
Oh-woah-woah-woah
Woah-woah-woah
Woah-woah-woah

Always on my own, never much to celebrate
I'm happy just to hesitate, happy just to lose
Always on my own, looking for another day
I'm looking for another way of running back to you
I can never show, none of my emotions
I'm a man, so I've been holding up my thoughts of suicide
Always on my own, everyone is passing by me
So I think of passing on, but I don't want to die

I don't want to die, I, I
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