"I Didn't Know How To Say" lyrics

I wanna be kissed like when I was small
You grew up and I got smaller than before
You went to clean up while I was shaking on the floor
But I didn't know how to say I don't want you near me
You deserved better, so I gave you my body

Time to count the kisses I've spent
I'll use my body to pay the rent
I said it was fine, in your defense
But I didn't know how to say, "I don't want you to touch me"
I didn't know how to say, "I don't want you to touch me"
I didn't know how to say, "I don't want you to touch me"

I'll love myself if you touch me like that
Can't speak, hold off my panic attack
Use me, use me if you just insist
That you love the body you refuse to kiss

I'm not used to being loved
The kisses that led to sex were close enough
I'm in a stranger's arms, a stranger's bed
I can't relax my ....ing head
And I didn't know how to say, "I don't want you to touch me"
I didn't know how to say, "I don't want you to touch me"
I didn't know how to say, "I don't want you to touch me"

I'll love myself if you touch me like that (Touch me)
Can't speak, hold off my panic attack (Touch me)
Use me, use me if you just insist (Touch me)
But you love the body you refuse to kiss

(Love me)
Touch me
(Use me)
Love me

But you didn't know how to say, "I want you to love me"