"Drowning" lyrics

What is it for?
I feel like I bother people
I get ignored
I can't help but overthink it
Gotta be more
Than swimming when I feel like sinking
Drowning
I'm drowning
I'm drowning
I'm drowning in the shame
I'm only to blame
I did it to myself
I shared my pain
Please, don't hold it against me
I'm just feeling empty
I'm just feeling empty

Let me drown in my sorrow tonight
I don't really wanna think at all
Remember when I used to wonder what the top felt like
Now, I just pray that I don't fall
But my heart has been cold to the touch
And I haven't been sober for months
Been dealing with emotions
I'm having trouble opening up
Let me pour up. I know it's my crutch
But I'm hoping that someday I can swallow my pride
And release all the pain that I'm holding inside
But until then, I guess I'll stay on my grind
But I can't help but feel like I'm wasting my time

Where do you go when you feel like you're drowning but feel like you can't live without it?
Where do you go when you know that it's hopeless, it's over, but still wanna doubt it?

I'm drowning in the shame
Let me drown
I'm only to blame
Let me drown
I did it to myself
Let me drown
I shared my pain
Let me drown
Please, don't hold it against me
Let me drown
I'm just feeling empty
Let me drown
I'm just feeling empty
I'm just feeling empty