"MUD" lyrics

I've been on a search
For peace of mind
But even I
Get a bit uncomfortable at times
Fell off the grind
For the love
For the drugs
For the church
For the whores
Them gold diggers with them dark auras
Fast forward and I'm still sad
I'm just mad bored
Looking at my life like "What did you do that for?"

I ain't got the answers
Dance around the plot
Ask me all about my past
Another lie
Maybe I should face it
Maybe I'm ashamed
Maybe I'll embrace it
Maybe someday
Maybe someday
I won't be my own worst enemy
I know my whole life's still ahead of me

I've been through the mud
You ain't gonna hear me say I'm perfect
Never been enough
For you, it's fine, I know that I'm worth it
I've been through the mud
You ain't gonna hear me say I'm perfect
Never been enough
For you, it's fine, I know that I'm worth it

I made my whole life better
But I still remember
When you looked me in my eye
You went and pulled that trigger
Sign and deliver
Said you only love me when I'm high
Now I'm on the top
Higher than I've ever been
And full of sin
But I would rather be me
Than you and be full of shit
Don't get it twisted
I do forgive
But I was never your responsibility
Somebody you could fix
I will admit
I did like it a little bit
Because when you split
You forced me to look at how I live
It's like the veil draped over my wig
Lifted and gifted me the clarity to win

I've been through the mud
You ain't gonna hear me say I'm perfect
Never been enough
For you, it's fine, I know that I'm worth it
I've been through the mud
You ain't gonna hear me say I'm perfect
Never been enough
For you, it's fine, I know that I'm worth it

My dough came from my woes
My woes came from my hoes
My hoes came for my throat every time
And so did I, but it's fine, we get by
My dough came from my woes
My woes came from my hoes
My hoes came for my throat every time
But so did I, nevermind - come on

I've been through the mud
You ain't gonna hear me say I'm perfect
Never been enough
For you, it's fine, I know that I'm worth it
I've been through the mud
You ain't gonna hear me say I'm perfect
Never been enough
For you, it's fine, I know that I'm worth it