"Field Trip" lyrics

I'm surprised that I woke up
Yeah, but I woke up
Another 2 points for the underdog
Another game headed to overtime
And it's fine if you hate me
It's cool if you hate me
It's alright if you hate me
Whole lot of reasons you should hate me
I'm just trying to do my...
Best, and that's all I, can...
Do, hope that you saw that, too
Another petal in the turbine, yeah
But, it's fine if you hate me
It's cool if you hate me, yeah
Wouldn't be surprised if you hate me
Really couldn't blame you for hating me
Done a lot of things I can't take back
Whole lot of things that I regret
Like, why did I say that?
Why the fuck did I say that?
I don't want to be this guy, no
But, couldn't be anybody else
Even though I think I might kill myself, sometimes
Even though I dream about doing it, sometimes
Sorry to the moms, I can't censor that
But, play this in the car when you feel this way
Just to circumvent the feeling that you wish would go away
Doesn't make you any different, just aware that things change
And that's all this really is, it's a process
Dealing with too many feels, yeah
Thumbing through too many options
Kind of hard to tell what's real
Been working on some beats, yeah, working on some new shit
Working on me, yeah, I've been on a field trip, yeah
And I don't want to say goodbye, but you, keep on saying goodbye
And I, know I should've realized, that I had it all the whole damn time
But, I'm a fuck up, yeah, just a 28 year old fuck up, yeah, yeah
I wish that I had told you
Told you that I loved you
Before I knew I loved you
But, I've been on a field trip

I've been on a...
A field trip
And I'm ready to go home