"The Plot" lyrics

Swimming in my mind, I could drown in these thoughts
Couple brand new faces, but their names I forgot
Feeling how you feel, well, that really ain't my fault
Didn't bank on me, now they empty out the vault
Like fallout, but we fall out over shit 'cause we don't talk
I still talk to my demons; sometimes they're all that I got
If my life is a movie, think I really lost the plot

Where the wind blows
I go
I must be a ghost
Through the window
And I'm home
With the big doors
You barely miss those
Hanging with the no-shows
The modern schizos
Necklace full of gemstones
Lit like crystals
Body is a rental
Living is a ritual

Million miles away, I still aimed and took the shot
Some days I wanna save myself, and some days I just rot
I pop forget-me-nots, she remembered off the top
Told her, "Look me in my eyes, I would die before I stop"
So what happens when you stop?

Swimming in my mind, I could drown in these thoughts
Couple brand new faces, but their names I forgot
Feeling how you feel, well, that really ain't my fault
Didn't bank on me, now they empty out the vault
Like fallout, but we fall out over shit 'cause we don't talk
I still talk to my demons; sometimes they're all that I got
If my life is a movie, think I really lost the plot