"At My Worst" lyrics

When all the time that I spend is empty
And all the light I once held has left me in the dark
Self aware that I'm the cause of all your sorrow
And, yeah, I know it's hard
To see me at my worst while it all falls apart
So sick of living this way

Haunted by this lonely feeling it feeds
Straight to my head, it drains the life out of me
I knew that I could never be what you needed me to be
Torn in two, now I'm

Killing every broken piece of me
Living in vein of what I wanted to be
But now, it all breaks down
Looking at the time that passed me by
Losing all the fight I had in me to feel alive
Buried by emptiness, hoping I can survive

I count the losses every time I awake, leave me be
What is the cost, what's at stake?
How long will I let my past burden me?

I never could quite escape
It's still breaking me down with every step
Cursed from the first breath

Killing every broken piece of me
Living in vein of what I wanted to be
But now, it all breaks down
Looking at the time that passed me by
Losing all the fight I had in me to feel alive
Buried by emptiness, hoping I can
Survive, survive, survive
Buried by emptiness, hoping I can survive

Light still fades
I'm only longing for peace in the end
All I wanted was a life I could sustain
Absent of decay