"Ugly Child" lyrics

I grew up downtown, all I knew is the brakes
Getting kick and whip, gotta do what it takes
Getting shot down everywhere I go
Still living out of suitcases, say yeah, so?

In the basement, hit bongs and hold my breath
Everybody moved on I'm the last one left
No stress, get wrecked, no background check
This [?] the gold medal on my chest

And I don't know which way to go
Is it up, or it's down?
Just put me back on the road
I'm tryna get to the money, I wanna wear that gold
Been feeling broke in the brain more than you know

Because my mama said as a baby I was an ugly child
And she let drugs allowed
I guess that's why I'm like this today
Because my mama said as a baby I was an ugly child
And she let drugs allowed
I guess that's why I'm like this today

Mama, baby, ugly child
Mama, baby, ugly child

I've been punched down, swimming the Great Lakes
Alabama to the hill, waking up with the shakes
Ain't doing much now, no pumpin' the brakes
Mama said I'm going now, I'm playin' for stakes

And they've never been high, I'll roll the dice on deck
Got me staring down snake eyes right in the face
Yeah, I grew up a screw-up that used to hang at the [?]
Now I show up and blow up and leave it all on the stage

Yeah, okay, yeah, I'm too blazed
I spent too much time, I'm too unfazed
Been ADD since ABC so maybe we can rock this after [?]

Because my mama said as a baby I was an ugly child
And she let drugs allowed
I guess that's why I'm like this today
Because my mama said as a baby I was an ugly child
And she let drugs allowed
I guess that's why I'm like this today

Mama, baby, ugly child
Mama, baby, ugly child
Mama, baby
Mama, baby, ugly child