"Close My Eyes" lyrics
Drex Carter, Kid Cole & SadBoyProlific Lyrics
[Drex Carter:]
Yeah
Been a long road, yeah it's been a long time
Remember I was 12 when I wrote my first rhyme
Livin' in hell inside of my mind
Outside, don't know the feelings I had
Then I got old and started to make songs
Feelings got cold and drop in my palms
Teachers don't know the weight in my mind
Turn in my folder it stared in grade 9
Wish I could've done it back in grade 6
Outside feel dark but I'ma make hits
So it's my time, time to take risks
Traded my flesh to flash out my wrist
Hit up that studio the first time
Didn't know then it'd take about 5-
Hundred more until I put out a song
And a teaser was born but that was just the start
One of those studios made a few hits
One of them kept me from being homeless
But then I turned a new page in my life and was tired of waiting
I wanted to fly
Flying meant losing home in Medina
Flying meant losing another, "I'd see ya"
Flying meant honestly I shouldn't be here
Never tried it myself, been held in that reaper
Broken car, broken heart, a broken promise didn't make me stop
Broke feels oh, so long ago
But just wrote my check to write me off
Spent about 20,000 on a tour
Independent, I ain't got it off shore
Bank account been froze like 4 months in but I know y'all got it boy
Don't wanna follow, I can feel tomorrow closin' that door again
Can feel the sorrow lost inside tomorrow where does the story begin?
Don't know no more
Upset at it all the time
Outside, it's on fire
Don't wanna follow, I can feel tomorrow
[SadBoyProlific:]
Holdin' them close while they dying slowly that moment in time tend to rip you in half
The scars on your flesh you can try and correct but they won't go away when you taking a bath
Was taken aback, way in the past
My own homie stuck a blade in my back
I ain't never once try to move like a snake so I can't be mad when they labeled you that
Incompatible down to the ions
In the mountains, where my hill to die on
Heart colder than a fucking crayon
I ain't get a shoulder I could cry on
Hold up Drex, I just need a sec
I just gotta bleed to proceed to hex
Sippin' margaritas, rocking Regal vest
Learn to listen more, start speaking less
My own momma used to take me to the store
And then leave me just to make me search for her
Had to leave a really good girl, 'cause I can't spend my life finding worth for her
If you feel the pain that I'm trynna lay, and you relate then I'll hurt for you
If you trynna travel down this way and then end up lost, just know I will search for you
I was like 6, I wrote my first line, opened my eyes, then watch a verse fly
You blessed, yes but working you're learning the time and it's due till like 5 step out burning a light
It's 2:45 in a church while I cry
The tears startin' to hurt and then burn while they dry
Question my worth, do I deserve life?
Love you so much, save the hurt for the night
[Drex Carter:]
Don't wanna follow, I can feel tomorrow closin' that door again
Can feel the sorrow lost inside tomorrow where does the story begin?
Don't know no more
Upset at it all the time
Outside, it's on fire
Don't wanna follow, I can feel tomorrow
[Kid Cole:]
(Why are you inside my head?)
She said “say what you want”
I ain't have worst feelings untouched
Like I been holding onto your arm
Memories fade, I can't recall love
Dark room, like I'm falling in deep with my heart moved
Same old shit with my heart loose
You ain't my friend, if you was I forgave you
I wasn't enough always thinking I'll save you
Fight them wars myself and I'm the only soldier still standing here
And found love through the grapevine, but I'm having trouble understanding it
There's white noise in the silence from the aftermath of the argument
And gaslights when we break off, now I just wanna be alone again
And you break my heart by choice
Not that shit you make in your head
Feel my brain splat in my dreams
When I end my life instead
And this selfish bitch is my end
Can't do anything she said
Kill myself this time for real
Love's changed on the edge of my head, like
Told my bitch I'ma make it alright
There's 400 goals I'ma reach and I lied
Stars have been falling and matters allies
But I left the earth for a moment to die
She's seen the vividest pictures of mine
Told 'em my stories, I've told 'em my lies
She only know what I tell her the pain is cause I dont want 3 of them suckers to cry
Yeah
Been a long road, yeah it's been a long time
Remember I was 12 when I wrote my first rhyme
Livin' in hell inside of my mind
Outside, don't know the feelings I had
Then I got old and started to make songs
Feelings got cold and drop in my palms
Teachers don't know the weight in my mind
Turn in my folder it stared in grade 9
Wish I could've done it back in grade 6
Outside feel dark but I'ma make hits
So it's my time, time to take risks
Traded my flesh to flash out my wrist
Hit up that studio the first time
Didn't know then it'd take about 5-
Hundred more until I put out a song
And a teaser was born but that was just the start
One of those studios made a few hits
One of them kept me from being homeless
But then I turned a new page in my life and was tired of waiting
I wanted to fly
Flying meant losing home in Medina
Flying meant losing another, "I'd see ya"
Flying meant honestly I shouldn't be here
Never tried it myself, been held in that reaper
Broken car, broken heart, a broken promise didn't make me stop
Broke feels oh, so long ago
But just wrote my check to write me off
Spent about 20,000 on a tour
Independent, I ain't got it off shore
Bank account been froze like 4 months in but I know y'all got it boy
Don't wanna follow, I can feel tomorrow closin' that door again
Can feel the sorrow lost inside tomorrow where does the story begin?
Don't know no more
Upset at it all the time
Outside, it's on fire
Don't wanna follow, I can feel tomorrow
[SadBoyProlific:]
Holdin' them close while they dying slowly that moment in time tend to rip you in half
The scars on your flesh you can try and correct but they won't go away when you taking a bath
Was taken aback, way in the past
My own homie stuck a blade in my back
I ain't never once try to move like a snake so I can't be mad when they labeled you that
Incompatible down to the ions
In the mountains, where my hill to die on
Heart colder than a fucking crayon
I ain't get a shoulder I could cry on
Hold up Drex, I just need a sec
I just gotta bleed to proceed to hex
Sippin' margaritas, rocking Regal vest
Learn to listen more, start speaking less
My own momma used to take me to the store
And then leave me just to make me search for her
Had to leave a really good girl, 'cause I can't spend my life finding worth for her
If you feel the pain that I'm trynna lay, and you relate then I'll hurt for you
If you trynna travel down this way and then end up lost, just know I will search for you
I was like 6, I wrote my first line, opened my eyes, then watch a verse fly
You blessed, yes but working you're learning the time and it's due till like 5 step out burning a light
It's 2:45 in a church while I cry
The tears startin' to hurt and then burn while they dry
Question my worth, do I deserve life?
Love you so much, save the hurt for the night
[Drex Carter:]
Don't wanna follow, I can feel tomorrow closin' that door again
Can feel the sorrow lost inside tomorrow where does the story begin?
Don't know no more
Upset at it all the time
Outside, it's on fire
Don't wanna follow, I can feel tomorrow
[Kid Cole:]
(Why are you inside my head?)
She said “say what you want”
I ain't have worst feelings untouched
Like I been holding onto your arm
Memories fade, I can't recall love
Dark room, like I'm falling in deep with my heart moved
Same old shit with my heart loose
You ain't my friend, if you was I forgave you
I wasn't enough always thinking I'll save you
Fight them wars myself and I'm the only soldier still standing here
And found love through the grapevine, but I'm having trouble understanding it
There's white noise in the silence from the aftermath of the argument
And gaslights when we break off, now I just wanna be alone again
And you break my heart by choice
Not that shit you make in your head
Feel my brain splat in my dreams
When I end my life instead
And this selfish bitch is my end
Can't do anything she said
Kill myself this time for real
Love's changed on the edge of my head, like
Told my bitch I'ma make it alright
There's 400 goals I'ma reach and I lied
Stars have been falling and matters allies
But I left the earth for a moment to die
She's seen the vividest pictures of mine
Told 'em my stories, I've told 'em my lies
She only know what I tell her the pain is cause I dont want 3 of them suckers to cry
Writer(s): Composer Author Unknown, Nathaniel Jordan Kim
