"armageddon" lyrics

Last week I contemplated giving up hope
I know, I know, I'm not, I was close
Instead I got it bad, I smoked just to forget
It's been so bleak
Dropping weight, I feel pretty weak
No matter all the food that I eat
The younger me, I swear
It would've been her dream

But it's my nightmare
Searching for relief but it's not there
Searching for a reason, it ain't fair
I don't care, I'm gonna throw a fit

Isn't armageddon but I'm getting fucking sick of it
Sick of endless remedies without an endless benefit
Maybe that's the more bitter pill
That it ain't armageddon, I'm just living in my own Hell

I'm fine, I'm only miserable like all of the time
But don't look sorry for me
Or else I'll lie and spit some bullshit line like
"It's all a blessing in disguise"

Of a nightmare
Searching for relief but it's not there
Searching for a reason, it ain't fair
I don't care, I'm gonna throw a fit

Isn't armageddon but I'm getting fucking sick of it
Sick of endless remedies without an endless benefit
Maybe that's the more bitter pill
That it ain't armageddon, I'm just living in my own Hell

Oh, in my own Hell
Living in my own Hell
That ain't armageddon, I'm just
Living in my own Hell