"extraordinary" lyrics

I feel like I owe you an apology
I nearly disappeared without a word
I almost quit my music for psychology
I would've done anything to hide and stop the hurt

I wasn't like myself
I was somebody else
Watching myself
Be somebody else

So burn it all down
Blow it all up
You only see yourself
When you're all fucked up
But isn't it extraordinary

To burn it all down
Suck it back up
At least you're honest
When you're all fucked up
But isn't it extraordinary
Being happy

I had to start again from scratch
Created a brand new me
To be and watch her crash
I lied and lied, then took a pause
Fell into debt and moved, but saw
Sometimes the price is all for a good cause

Cause I wasn't like myself
I was somebody else
Watching myself
Be somebody else

So burn it all down
Blow it all up
Cause You only see yourself
When you're all fucked up
But isn't it extraordinary

To burn it all down
Suck it back up
At least you're honest
When you're all fucked up
Oh isn't it extraordinary
Being happy

I lost the plot, I paid the price
I wanted follows, streams and hype
I broke the promises
I made when I began at 23
I only wished that possibly
I could make little girls believe
That you don't have to be a super model
Nepo baby queen
To make it all work for you
To make all your dreams come true
Cause I'm finally who I wanna be at
Almost 30

I wasn't like myself
Forgive me

I lost the plot, I paid the price
I wanted follows, streams and hype
I broke the promises
I made when I began at 23

I'm such a virgo that it hurts to make a plan that doesn't work
But I'm finally who I wanna be at
Almost 30