"This Isn't Happening" lyrics

I know alone
It's not as grim as you fear, don't feel bad for me dear
'Cause I don't
But maybe I'm lying, I'm always lying
Please pick up the phone
I'm calling, I'm crying, I'm sick of the sound of this dial tone
This isn't happening
This isn't happening

I was just telling a stranger about you an hour ago
Nothing makes sense to me now
If you were my home
Where am I supposed to go?
If you were my home
I know alone

This isn't happening
Running away
How many steps to the fire escape?
I'm always planning for the worst case
And the worst days and the worst days
To lose someone in the first place
It's the worst day and the worst way
To lose someone
Said this isn't happening

It's all the same
Hey you should work on yourself, go get help
Yeah, it's time for a change
Maybe I'm trying, maybe surviving is all I can take
Besides it's not fair, why should I care
When you don't get to make the same mistakes?

This isn't happening
Show me the meaning, I'm desperate to cope with the stress
Yeah, somehow
But nothing makes sense to me now
If you were my home
Where am I supposed to stay?
Now I can't go home
Wait, what did you say?

This isn't happening
Running away
How many steps to the fire escape?
I'm always planning for the worst case
And the worst days and the worst days
To lose someone in the first place
It's the worst day and the worst way
To lose someone
This isn't happening

This isn't happening
This isn't happening
This isn't happening
Said this isn't happening
This isn't happening
This isn't happening
This isn't happening
This isn't happening
This isn't happening
This isn't happening

And I'm running on third place
Gonna go to my endless cave
And until I end up on the pavement
Not thinking
And I won't stop to catch my breath
Guess I'm terrified of what's next
And I'd rather be on the pavement
Not thinking