"Alive" lyrics

If this is how it ends, then I don't wanna know
I close my eyes and fade away alone, fade away alone
If this is everything, then I'll just smile tonight
'Cause I made it out alive, I made it out alive

I had to use my pain, but I was okay
I let it pull down through my hands and watched all of my demons fade away
And I break these chains for the foes who came
While the blood is dripping down my face
I watch all of my demons fade away, big gang shit, hoe

I'm sick of living battling my addiction
My brain is like a prison, I'm wondering how I'm living now
But I've made it out alive, bitch, I've made a lot of life
If this is how it ends, then I don't wanna know

I'll close my eyes and fade away alone
If this is everything, then I'll just smile tonight
'Cause I made it out alive, I made it out alive

If this is everything, then I'll just smile tonight
'Cause I made it out alive with so much to gain
People sing and dance to the music played by a random band
They don't see my depression sing along
And my eyes stay dry

Though I'm hurt inside, my hatred seems to keep me alive
How come?
Although I might be told my end
And I might be just right here

I better sing and dance
'Cause I got chains that's wrapped 'round my feeling
And they watch as all my blood leaves from my eyes
'Cause I made it out alive

If this is how it ends, then I don't wanna know

I close my eyes and fade away alone, fade away alone
If this is everything, then I'll just smile tonight
'Cause I made it out alive, I made it out alive
This is everything that I'll just smile tonight
'Cause I faded out alive, faded out alive