"HAPPY PLACE" lyrics

I found my happy place...
In the book of my mistakes...
And I sound so out of place...
Out of place... out of place...

I say a lie, I'm not a wreck at all...
I'm living life, I'm not a mess at all...

I sit around and reminisce, all of the emptiness
And all the things that you once said
And I swear I looked you in your face
And that empty place you used to say I'd end up dead

As I sleep, I'm trembling
And I'm remembering all of the things inside my head
I can't help but questioning what they look for
If I pack my shit and fled

I found my happy place with a razor blade
In the book of my mistakes
And I sound so out of place when I try to say
There is a pain upon my face

I found my happy place with a razor blade
In the book of my mistakes
And I sound so out of place when I try to say
There is a pain upon my face

I sit and lie. I'm not a wreck at all
But it's a wrecking ball that I call when I need space
I'm living life. I'm not a mess at all
But with the blessings, all I ever hold up to my face

The blessings, all I ever hold up to my face...
It's all I ever hold up to my face
It's all I ever hold up to my face

I still remember sitting on your couch
As I would look about
It's like your soul had left its space
Didn't know that you could be so high
That you had empty eyes
It's like a pill that took my place

Growing up, I always wondered
If you had pondered if I ever learned to tie my lace
Fucking sad I never felt your love
Because you ran for drugs
And as you ran I'd still get chased

I found my happy place with a razor blade
In the book of my mistakes
And I sound so out of place when I try to say
There is a pain upon my face

I found my happy place with a razor blade
And a book of my mistakes
And I sound so hard to please when I try to say
There is a pain upon my face

I see a line, not a wreck at all
But it's a wrecking ball
And I call when I need space
I'm living life. I'm not a mess at all
But with the blessings all I ever hold up to my face...