"Ocean" lyrics

Like I needed some more in my life
But I'm looking for pain, pain at the door

Like I needed some more in my life
But I'm looking for pain
I've been depressed for so long
When I'm writing a song and I'm happy
It all feels the same
I never knew that depression was falling so deep
That I think it's a part of my brain
Think I've been crazy forever
So don't try to tell her it came from the money or fame

Oh, selling cost an ocean
But it's holes inside a boat now
Boat now, boat now, boat now
And I'm steady, tryna roll
But I can't move because
I'm broke now

Oh, selling cost an ocean
But it's holes inside a boat now
Boat now, boat now, boat now
And I'm steady, tryna roll
But I can't move because
I'm broke now

I'm laying in my bed right now
Stuck inside my head
I'm down balance in the head somehow
With a .45 right in my face
Huh

I'm laying in my bed right now
Stuck inside my head, on my head
I'm down balance in the head somehow
With a .45 right in my face

Huh, so long
I'm guessing it's a farewell
Long gone, falling down the stairwell so strong
But it wasn't in the instill
It's a home run, but the opposite of infield pleasure
Making everybody know it's been real
Heart pierced to the feeling
Like a pen wheel cut deep
I don't know if he could be healed
It's a long fall from the top just to be here

Selling ghosts
But there's holes inside a boat now
Boat now, boat now, boat now
And I'm steady tryna roll
But I can't move because I'm broke now
Ah ah ah
I'm standing cross the ocean
But there's holes inside a boat now
Boat now, boat now, boat now
And I'm steady tryna roll
But I can't move because I'm broke now, broke now

I'm laying in my bed right now
Stuck inside my head
I'm down balancing the head somehow
With a .45 right in my face
Huh

I'm laying in my bed right now
Suckers in my head
I'm down balance in the head somehow
With a .45 right in my face
Huh