"In A Month Or So" lyrics

I've been a self-deprecating Debbie downer
I've been the buzzkill everyone wants to kill
It's not like anyone told me that they want to
But I think somebody will
I'm under house arrest without any charges
Cuz if I'm gonna be like this, might as well
Don't wanna give anybody a synopsis
So I deal with it myself

I don't want to be alone
But I don't want my problems to be yours
So...

I'll maybe call you up in a month or so
When I'm better to be around
There's no guarantee but at least I know
That it's better than letting you down
I'd call my therapist but I don't have one of those
So I'll just suffer in the silence of home
But I'll call you up in a month or so
When my tears are all dried out
When my tears are all dried out

I'm under pressure from my own expectations
I'm losing sleep due to the voice in my head
It finds the joy within one way conversations
And I'm on the other end

I wish I had control
Over how it takes a toll
Over how it just unfolds and never closes when it's told to
I don't even know if
That would make a difference
I'd rather keep my distance
So...

I'll maybe call you up in a month or so
When I'm better to be around
There's no guarantee but at least I know
That it's better than letting you down
I'd call my therapist but I don't have one of those
So I'll just suffer in the silence of home
But I'll call you up in a month or so
When my tears are all dried out
When my tears are all dried out

I'll cry inside the kitchen over gas lit stoves
Cuz eating all my feelings seem to help me the most
I'd call my therapist but I don't have one of those (oh oh oh)
So I'll just suffer in the silence of home
I'll find the best solution as I self-diagnose
Or find the silver-lining as I make it a joke
I'd call my therapist but I don't have one of those (oh oh oh)
So I'll just suffer in the silence of home