"Mistakes" lyrics

If I stay here can I live with my sins?
It's not all golden but it outweighs the end
Caught in the masses who can't seem to get away
Was it all just a mistake?

I'm not sober but at least I'm alive
Lost in the open I can't open my eyes
Was it all just a mistake?
Was it all just a mistake?

Nothing's making sense
Left in shades of gray again
Divorced from innocence
Withered down til' I feel nothing

It's better than choking
On the things I couldn't say
I guess it's better off this way

Can't help but crash and burn
These bitter days are draining I can't feel at all
I'm not at home in my own bones
The better days are coming but they don't feel close
I'm on my own

Was it all just a mistake?
Cause I've been carrying the weight
What'll take me out of this misery?
God have mercy

Can't help but crash and burn
These bitter days are draining I can't feel at all
I'm not at home in my own bones
The better days are coming but they don't feel close
I'm on my own

There's a part of me that can't let go
Despite the aching I could never show
What it means for me to live alone
It's taking everything to walk away