"deathwish" lyrics

What's the deal yeah
It's been 25 years
And I still ain't got a clue
How to feel yeah
And what's it take
Just to feel okay?
Okay 'cus

Nothing really helps this depression
The only to blame is my reflection
This some real post death shit
And I don't need a chain
Got a noose as my necklace

Doctor said I got some issues
Yeah a deathwish
Am I the only one that's feeling fucking helpless?
I heard they all love you when you die
Is that the reason I don't wanna be alive?
Message
Baby I can hear you calling what's your message
'Cus to be honest I don't think that you could help this
But you 'gon love me when I die
And that's the reason I don't wanna be alive

I spoke to God
He told me go to fucking hell
I know I got
A lot but I can't love myself
I know I changed
It's hard for me to act the same
I'll take the blame
And go back 2017
All my homies went ghost
That's why it's a black rose
I can't help but feel alone
All my life I'm so cold
That's why you don't get close
I can't help but feel alone

Nothing really helps this depression
The only to blame is my reflection
This some real post death shit
And I don't need a chain
Got a noose as my necklace

Doctor said I got some issues
Yeah a deathwish
Am I the only one that's feeling fucking helpless?
I heard they all love you when you die
Is that the reason I don't wanna be alive?
Message, baby I can hear you calling what's your message?
'Cus to be honest I don't think that you could help this
But you 'gon love me when I die
And that's the reason I don't wanna be alive

Got a deathwish, deathwish
No I don't need a necklace, deathwish
Got a deathwish, deathwish
No I don't need a necklace, deathwish