"Secondary Worship" lyrics

Sometimes I look back
To counting every freckle on your face
But they would change every year
And now I sit counting all the exes I misplaced
But it all led to here

And here is not 'there' (Here is not 'there')
And 'there' is not somewhere I want to be, is it?
No laissez faire sentiment

Breathe
Say it back
Breathe

Now I'm such a different person
Found a better version, I swear
I create the current saying what I shouldn't again

Cry, cry
Deny, deny, deny the many signs that you wanted me here
Nice try - giving in is merely getting by
Don't you love when I'm near?

Allow (It has led)
Allow (It has led)
Allow, allow, allow, allow, allow (Has led me here)

Now I'm such a different person
Found a better version, I swear
I create the current saying what I shouldn't again

Saw who I don't want to be
I know where it leads and it goes so low
Like another person, shedding off the version I sold

Breathe
Say it back
Breathe

Secondary worship
Dodging a diversion
Any skepticism has led me here

(Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh)
(Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh)
There are secrets I can't tell
But the effects I can feel

Such a different person
Found a better version, I swear
I create the current saying what I shouldn't again

Saw who I don't want to be (Don't want to be)
I know where it leads and it goes so low
Like another person, shedding off the version I sold

There are secrets of which I can still feel