"Affinity" lyrics

I tell myself I've got a brave heart
And hide behind clever lil disguise
But that only gets you so far
And that's still the only way that I know
Yeah and

I try to trust the waves to bring me through
This hurricane and bring me back to you but
I'm lying if said that
I wasn't afraid that

You won't always love me
Like you say you will
Can you hear how fast my heart's beating
It's a fear I can't kill

Wish we could go back to the way things were
Cuz the way things were I felt like I wouldn't lose you
Just go back to the things I'm used to
My mind is in a war I'm losing

Cuz my heart just wants to feel safe
But I'm never feeling that way
You're my only safe place
And I keep thinking that

You won't always love me
Like you say you will
Can you hear how fast my heart's beating
It's a fear I can't kill