"ghost" lyrics

I can't handle change, I can't handle stormy weather
I keep lying to myself, saying shit will get better
Some days I just wanna end my life with this beretta
I'm not perfect, I'm a fuck-up, I wish I was fucking special

I can't handle change, I can't handle stormy weather
I keep lying to myself, saying shit will get better
Some days I just wanna end my life with this beretta
I'm not perfect, I'm a fuck-up, I wish I was fucking special

I feel like a ghost, no one wanna talk to me
I love you very much, I just wanna see you happy
See I hurt the ones I love, I don't deserve my own family
And I feel like I am cursed, I know others have it worse

I miss her and it hurts, I hope that you're proud of me, mother
And I can be a jerk, but it come from a place of hurt
Please don't ever go, I know we can make it work
I don't ever top, an anti-social since birth