"Plastic Smile" lyrics

I'm bored once again
I've been failing on the inside
I've been on the outside for too long

It comes and goes
It never shows
And it'll be at least a few more months 'fore it's all done

I don't think healing is just staring at the ceiling
My most used word of the year has been goodbye
I barely think, I hardly drink, it's why every long trip I have to drive

Philly to Pittsburg is when all your words just hit worse
Why does every little thing become a fight?
Still demolished at my strongest, I'll never open my mouth again until I die

I don't think healing has any solid meaning
A piece of shit thrown at the wall to justify
Whatever sticks, "You're such a dick", sure if that's what it takes to help you sleep at night

'Cause I don't sleep at night

Was it anything like you wanted?
Like you carefully tracked and plotted?

I'm drunk in the basement, someone called the cops
A million Ford Explorers up and down the block
Haven't seen your face 'round here in a while
Reciprocate your shit-eating plastic smile (It's so unsettling)

I've been readying all my ships and I'm heading for the coast
I'm done with six band bills, expired pills, and breathing black mold
No, I don't wanna ride, don't wanna ride, gotta learn how to say no