"cold sweat" lyrics

I've been sleeping on your side of the bed
Cause I'm so tired of drawing lines in my head
Flip your pillow over try to cool you down
Pull the sheets over my head to drown you out
You say you don't wanna do this anymore
And I don't want to either but I still wanna be yours
18 months of torture but I called it love
Keeping my composure while my hands go numb

Grab my coat off the floor
As you walk me to the door

I wanna crash my car in the pouring rain
So I don't have to know this type of pain
Cause I don't wanna feel what it feels like to lose you
Don't wanna feel my skin on another's skin
I try to hold his hand but it don't fit
I fall asleep wake up in a cold sweat
I try to scream for you
But you're not there anymore

I missed my brother's birthday
Cause you said yours was more important
Hurt myself to make you happy
Cause I fucking I adored ya

And I cut off all of my best friends
Cause you said they were a bad influence
Ain't it funny how that in the end
You were the worst one?

I wanna crash my car in the pouring rain
So I don't have to know this type of pain
Cause I don't wanna feel what it feels like to lose you
Don't wanna feel my skin on another's skin
I try to hold his hand but it don't fit
I fall asleep wake up in a cold sweat
I try to scream for you
But you're not there anymore
What was it all for?
What was it all for?