"Placeholder" lyrics

Not usually
Optimistic
Tell myself it was just bad timing
And if we
Tried again it
Was gonna end with a silver lining

I know you don't know exactly
What you're feeling now 'cause
We're both 20-something
Still got shit to figure out and

I'm not blaming you for
Holding someone when you drown
'Cause I like being held by you
However long you want me to

Guess
I was your placeholder
Until you got to hold her again
And now you wanna act like
All we were was friends
But that bitch you never told her
The things you said
The places that we've been
I'd hate to say it but I'd
Do it all again

'Cause I love you I'll admit it
At least that's how it feels when I'm in it
And I don't doubt that you did it
At least that's how it feels when I'm in it

You're calling
She's asleep and
Say you wish it was me in your bed
Didn't I hate that
I still [?]
Unless you get in my head

I know you don't know exactly
What you're feeling now 'cause
We're both 20-something
Still got shit to figure out and

I'm not blaming you for
Holding someone when you drown
'Cause I like being held by you
However long you want me to

Guess
I was your placeholder
Until you got to hold her again
And now you wanna act like
All we were was friends
But that bitch you never told her
The things you said
The places that we've been
I'd hate to say it but I'd
Do it all again

'Cause I love you I'll admit it
At least that's how it feels when I'm in it
And I don't doubt that you did it
At least that's how it feels when I'm in it

Guess I was your placeholder
Until you got to hold her
Again