"Last Breath" lyrics

I was awoken
'Cause we haven't spoken
And, maybe, it's long overdue
Mourning the morning
You called without warning
Left a message. Said it was you

I never dialed
'Cause I was a child
But what if I picked up the phone?
Then would affection
Not trigger protection
And would I not feel so alone?

All on my own

We all make mistakes
I'm not above them
But I see my kids
How much I love them
[?]
If I had to leave
Until the last breath that I breathe

I see my son
How much he needs his mama
If she were to leave
In his life, that's some trauma
And that is the reason why I have this armor
Why me being open is really much harder
And that bears the question "Did you keep it moving?"
The life that you gave me
You care about losing?
I'm trapped in a place between "lost" and "confusion"
But promise that I'm 'a keep doing
Better than you

That's all I can do

I'm your mistake
Good, bad and ugly
Sometimes, I do wonder: did you even love me?
Why wouldn't you fight back, when I had to leave
Until the last breath that you breathe?