"Older" lyrics

I used to think that they don't love me
I used to think that they don't care
I told myself if they don't want me
Well, then I don't wanna be there

I used to go, used to go so reckless
I didn't care, care about my health
If I could go back, I would take time and tell myself

I know that you're hurting and you feel like they don't love you
Like the world has passed you by and no one's thinking of you
You don't wanna feel it, so, you never ever sober
Promise, you will make it and you'll get it, when you're older

You gon' get it, when you
And you gon' get it, when you
And you gon' get it, when you
Get it, when you're older

I remember all the late nights
I woke
I couldn't even stay asleep
I was heartbroke
I tried to talk about my feelings
I spoke
I couldn't even find the words
'Cause—uh—I chocked

Think I needed something
The Heimlich maneuver
How she switched up?
Thought that I knew her
Thought that the pain would last forever
If I could go back, I'd tell myself it'll bet better

I know that you're hurting and they made you feel so worthless
But you gotta trust me that there's more below the surface
Tears are running down your eyes
Car parked right on the shoulder
Promise, you will make it and you'll get it, when you're older

You gon' get it, when you
And you gon' get it, when you
And you gon' get it, when you
Get it, when you're older

You gon' get it, when you
And you gon' get it, when you
And you gon' get it, when you
Get it, when you're older